October 18, 2018
Oooh girl! You boys too! This mama has been a prayin' these days...I've prayed for years. Prayed when things were dark. Prayed when I was grateful for bountiful blessings. Prayed when I was confused. Prayed when I was happy. Prayed when I didn't know what I was actually praying for.
These days I'm praying for clarity. Big decisions lie ahead. Choices I'm not sure I'm ready for. I have big dreams, folks, big dreams for sure. And sometimes those dreams seem as if they are fizzling out, and other times they are exploding at a rate I just don't think I can keep up with.
I feel asleep praying last night. I was asking for guidance, asking if the time was right for things on the horizon, asking if this was 'the' time for me, asking for a sign; then I woke up and went to the mall. Makes perfect sense, right? The thing is, answers to my prayers were all around me. I went into a store that a friend works at, really just to say hi and see her beautiful smiling face. What I found (in addition to her gorgeous happiness) were the signs I was looking for. Literally. I found signs.
The first one is a phrase I have as my profile picture on my personal Facebook page. It says, simply "She believed she could. So she did." Belief, people, is one of the most important things in this Farmgirl journey of mine. Believing that I can make my dreams come true. Believing that other people are as obsessed with food as I am. Believing that I'm where I need to be, doing what I need to do.
The second sign I found, was, again, an actual sign. Pretty odd for a clothing store, but I'm just going with the flow here and believing that He is giving me what I was asking for. This one said "God is within her. She will not fail. (Psalms 46.5)." How freakin' powerful is THAT?! To know that God is in ME, little old me?! That because of it I cannot fail? What would YOU do if you knew you couldn't fail? That's a pretty powerful thought, right?
As the full impact of that hit me, standing in the middle of a clothing store in the mall, I started to cry. I cried because I am so blessed to be doing this and to share my passion with all of you peeps. I am thankful for each of you who are sharing this journey with me, and I humbly ask that y'all pray for me too. I don't care who you pray to, I'm no judge or jury, but I do believe in the power of prayer. So please pray that I continue to find success doing what I love, that I can grow my business to the next phase, and that I continue to find these little signs that bring me such happiness.
For those wondering, yes, I bought the signs and they are on the kitchen counter as a reminder to me that He is listening. I appreciate you listening too.